Sometimes I need to remove myself completely from everyone and everything so that I feel good again.

Prove me wrong, coward!

To Him (AKA my knight in shining armor):

You will never know it, but you saved me when I was in distress. You are my handsome knight and shining armor. When I was at my lowest point, at my worst, you came out of nowhere and helped me find myself, feel good about myself and be happy again. I had lost him, and I had lost myself. Since I lost him I was in a never ending perpetual state of depression where I was always bored and could not find joy in anything anymore. I thought of him every day, and everyday I would feel this extreme sadness where I felt like I couldn’t breathe, and this heavy pain on my chest, that felt it was crushing me. I wanted to cry all the time but I didn’t, and holding it in made me hurt even more. I always felt so tired and always looked forward to going to sleep. But you came out of nowhere and saved me. I had long forgotten about you, and you were in my past. There was a time that I thought of you everyday and I thought that you were the most beautiful thing that I had ever seen. I wanted to be with you so badly, and I had these daydreams that one day you’d notice me and we could be together.

When I was at my worst you reappeared in my life again, and reminded me of you, who I hadn’t thought about in years. All of a sudden I remembered how happy you would make me feel, and of your beautiful eyes and your smile. When you reappeared, and showed kindness towards me, and showed me that you knew who I was, you made me forget about him, and I thought of him less and less every day. You helped me get to a point where I didn’t think of him everyday and I could actually say his name in my head, or aloud, without breaking down every time. And by reappearing again you helped me get from my worst to doing better than I was. And for that I thank you, and am grateful to you, even though you don’t know all that you have done for me, how helpful you have been to me, and how much you actually mean to me.

Just like nicotine, heroin, morphine
Suddenly, I’m a fiend and you’re all I need
All I need, yeah, you’re all I needIt’s you, babe
And I’m a sucker for the way that you move, babe
And I could try to run, but it would be useless
You’re to blame
Just one hit of you, I knew I’ll never be the same